Firsthand Witness to the Thinking of an Abusive Youth Pastor
ACFJ is regularly contacted by the wives of abusers who are pastors or missionaries. The thing is incredible, but true. Here stands a man in the pulpit or in some pastoral ministry in a church, admired by the flock, thought to be the holiest of the holy, a model husband and father. That is the public fiction. The truth is a private horror story. In most cases if the wife/victim exposed who or what her husband really is, the majority of the church members would not believe her and she would catch all kinds of blame.
Wake up, Christians. You who claim to know Christ are supposedly capable of hearing the Good Shepherd’s voice and refusing to follow a false one. You who claim to know Christ are said to have been taught by the Spirit so that you can discern the spirit of truth from the spirit of error. You are to test the spirits for MANY false prophets have gone out. You are supposed to know that the devil can appear as an angel of light and that his servants come in the garb of sons of righteousness.
So why aren’t you hearing? Why aren’t you discerning? Why aren’t you testing? Laziness? Ignorance? Or maybe, just maybe, you do not have the Spirit of Christ in you and therefore do not belong to him at all? One thing is certain. Something is gravely amiss.
You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him. (Romans 8:9)
Want to hear from a firsthand witness what is really going on in the mind of a pastor (a youth pastor in this case) who later went on to be a full-blown pastor admired by the crowds? Well, let me take you right inside his mind and heart with the help of his ex-victim:
- He used to imagine raping and killing young girls and how he would bury their bodies
- He would say, when he saw girls as young as two years of age in bathing suits in the park that he was trying to prevent himself from stumbling in his lust for them
- He would talk about how he found the young girls in the youth group sexually appealing, though they were no more than 14 or 15
- He was into porn and would belittle me (his wife at that time) for my appearance
THIS was the youth pastor parents sent their kids to. THIS is the pastor now who the people still flock to.
Is this rare? Are we exaggerating the magnitude of this evil in the church? God’s Word doesn’t seem to think so:
These are hidden reefs at your love feasts, as they feast with you without fear, shepherds feeding themselves; waterless clouds, swept along by winds; fruitless trees in late autumn, twice dead, uprooted; wild waves of the sea, casting up the foam of their own shame; wandering stars, for whom the gloom of utter darkness has been reserved forever. (Jude 1:12-13)