A Cry For Justice

Awakening the Evangelical Church to Domestic Violence and Abuse in its Midst

The Haughty Evil of the Wicked and Their Just End

UPDATE Sept 2021: I have come to believe that Jeff Crippen does not practise what he preaches. He vilely persecuted an abuse victim and spiritually abused many other people in the Tillamook congregation. Go here to read the evidence. Jeff has not gone to the people that he spiritually and emotionally abused. He has not apologised to them, let alone asked for their forgiveness.


There are those who are clean in their own eyes but are not washed of their filth. There are those–how lofty are their eyes, how high their eyelids lift! There are those whose teeth are swords, whose fangs are knives, to devour the poor from off the earth, the needy from among mankind. (Proverbs 30:12-14)

The wicked, the narcissist, the sociopath, the abuser, is clean in his own eyes. He is covered with the filth of his evil, but he sees himself as spotless. Justified. Yes, he raged and threatened last night, but he had a right to it. He had to do it. Any guilt lies elsewhere. Like the Pharisees whom Jesus rebuked, this fellow sees himself as white and clean, all the while inside he is filthy, filthy, filthy with the corrupt evil of his own heart.

Look at him. See how lofty his eyes are? He is proud of himself and even boasts of his evil to those whom he oppresses. He is never wrong. Never guilty. Always right. Blame never rests upon him.

But when he speaks, his sword and fangs go to work. His words are uttered with the purpose of destroying and devouring his victims off the face of the earth. He is a bully, picking on the weak. And even if you were to record his words, the slashes of his sword-tongue, and play them back to him, he would admit no wrong. “You made me. I had to do it. You deserved to be punished.”

He is clean in his own eyes, yet dripping with his own moral filth. One Day. One Day, finally, his mouth will be shut. No excuses possible. Because the One Who charges him on that Day is pure truth whose Word cuts far more deeply and cleanly than any sword the wicked might have used. And everyone will see it. Everyone. To the glory of God.



  1. Anonymous

    I actually have recorded some of the filth poured out of his mouth directed at me and played it back to him. His response:

    You made me do it and now you’re just doing this to give me a guilt trip. You are disobeying scripture that says, ‘keep no record of wrongs’. And you are supposed to forgive 77 times. You are not one of God’s little ones and you are going to burn in hell for doing this to me. You’re nothing but a stumbling block to me and my ministry. Get behind me Satan!

    So there you have it, even listening to his own recorded voice and the horrible things he did and said to me he was in complete and deliberate denial. Some days I still can hardly believe the horror and evil I witnessed and when all the pain comes gushing back, I run and park at the feet of Jesus to gain wisdom, understanding and comfort!

    • Jeff Crippen

      Anon – I have seen this very thing myself. It really reveals the depth of the evil these abusers are.

      • Anonymous

        I got used to this evil during the day hours but what always amazed me, at night he would continue on the rampage depriving me of sleep till 4 or 5 o’clock in the morning. I think his actions were deliberate in breaking me down emotionally and mentally. I heard recently that sleep deprivation is used by the authorities as a form of torture to get terrorists to talk and give up valuable information that threaten one’s country. Now I understand why; it works to break you down.

    • For Too Long

      Anonymous, I’m actually replying to your comment below about your abuser continuing the rampage into the night. When I read that I could hardly believe it – that’s exactly what my (soon-to-be-ex) husband always did to me, too. He’d harass me in the middle of the night, oftentimes starting out by ripping all the covers off me or yanking my pillow out from under me and then started yelling at me. Sometimes it lasted for hours, without me saying hardly a word. The only thing that occasionally worked to make it stop is when I’d start praying as loud as I could while he was rampaging – just crying out to God for deliverance. He would yell at me to stop that and things would die down a bit after a few more minutes. But the sleep deprivation was unbearable because I was already so worn down emotionally. Anyway, so sorry to hear that you went through this, too.

      • Dear For Too Long
        Your comment represents the accounts I have heard from many victims.
        If your account was rarely heard, we would have to airbrush the details of it so that your abuser could not identify it as coming from you (should he happen to come across this blog). But the fact that your experience is so common means we do not have to airbrush it or delete any details. You could be ‘any-victim’.

        Not all abusers use these nighttime harassment / verbal-rampage tactics, but believe me, it is quite common in the stories I’ve heard. And I’ve been reading and hearing accounts from victims / survivors of abuse since 1999.

  2. Anonymous

    …and if you pay attention, he is actually very PROUD of himself. When abusers abuse they are in their element, fulfilling their purpose so-to-speak; and when they abuse those who are ESPECIALLY weak and vulnerable, they are even prouder! They are the opposite of Christ, hence: anti-Christ.

  3. a prodigal daughter returns

    Amen! What comfort is the thought that the day will come and God will call to account those fools that did not reverence Him. They displayed their lack of respect for God by a lifetime of worshiping themselves. Like their father lucifer they will be cast down forever and the Lord will not spare or pity after giving them a lifetime to repent. The words of their victims calling for their repentance will be used as evidence that they were warned but stiffened their necks

    The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, to fear God is to love what He loves and hate what He hates. He hates the pride of man, I hate it too, it does nothing but harm to hate the pride of man is to be a target for those that love it.

    And yet, the Lord laughs at the fool, He has a good chuckle at their pathetic antics while having mercy on those the fools hurt. Fools give us a vision of the disgrace and despicable nature of sin, may we all be quick to repent of our own foolishness.

    Psalm 37:12-15 (12) The wicked plot against the righteous and gnash their teeth at them;
    (13) but the Lord laughs at the wicked, for he knows their day is coming. (14) The wicked draw the sword and bend the bow to bring down the poor and needy, to slay those whose ways are upright. (15) But their swords will pierce their own hearts, and their bows will be broken.

    In this life God allowed me to see my arrogant abuser, after decades of abusing those around him brought to great public humiliation. I saw him curled in a ball, whimpering and crying like an infant because he’d been stripped of his power and publically disgraced. This gave me a vision of the limits of those that seem all powerful. Yes, for a time they have a little power, but their day is coming, God will not be mocked my finite man. If they aren’t disgraced in this life, they will be for all of eternity, and eternity is a long, long time.

    • surviving freedom

      This is one of the most profound things I have heard…

      The words of their victims calling for their repentance will be used as evidence that they were warned but stiffened their necks.

      I can’t seem to explain why, but this statement is really speaking a lot to me today.

      • Seeing the Light

        Same here as Surviving Freedom said. I felt inspired by God quite recently to frankly state to my anti-husband exactly how he is abusing me and called him to repentance for it bluntly. He has not done so. The timing of this statement here today encourages me that God was in that conversation giving me those words.

      • Still Reforming

        surviving freedom,
        I have occasionally wondered that – if the abuse is allowed to continue for just so long as evidence against the abuser – testimony (as it were) in the heavenly realm. I realize of course that these are things that only the counsel of God truly knows, but there are times I wonder, thinking back to how very many times I desired and tried to converse with my now ex-husband about the Scriptures, about God, about Christ, about the Spirit, only to be mocked, accused, and rebuffed. I wonder if it was all to add to his account.

  4. Herjourney

    His eyes are not that lofty. They are black.
    No turning back!

  5. Still Reforming

    The eyes give them away every time. Once I caught on to the ruse, I noticed it more and more. Today, I can’t look him in the eye. It’s…. repugnant to me to do so.

  6. surviving freedom

    Sometimes this is hard to detect, one must be astute to the subtle ways of “the wicked, the narcissist, the sociopath, the abuser,” The one in my life will occasionally come right out and deny any wrongdoing. However, more often then not he proclaims that he is taking responsibility, claims repentance, claims a change of heart … and he can do it very convincingly. It usually starts out with shock or outrage that I would accuse him of such a thing (no matter what it is and no matter how many times he’s done the same thing). Eventually, if there’s no other way around it, he’ll claim he knows what he’s done wrong … but if you listen closely it becomes easy to detect the subtle blame shifting, self pity, denial, minimization, etc. (Okay, easy for those who have had the misfortune of experiencing for far too long). He finds subtle ways to twist and turn things so that his behavior or attitude acted upon isn’t really the problem … instead the problem become my feeling or reactions to his repeated behavior and the tactics he uses to avoid responsibility or consequences. I think it would be far easier if he would just come right out and deny any wrongdoing rather than play all those little games.

    • Anonymous

      That’s exactly what they do – play games. It’s sport to them. It’s a cat and mouse game. They get a thrill watching us jump through their hoops. As long as they can play the game with us, they kick the can down the road and don’t have to look at their own evil behavior. Don’t play the game and you take away his power. And we know, the horror of this reality is difficult to accept but it’s reality nonetheless. We must never forget these evildoers must use us as scapegoats, they cannot look within. And we all know what true repentance looks like – The Prodigal. He not only turned away from sin, he turned to the Living God! God help us to be wise and see the very evil that lurks before us and recognize it as that which is described throughout Scripture. May we never doubt in the darkness that which God has shown us in the light.

  7. Sarah

    The state of Illinois actually recognizes sleep deprivation as abuse and is illegal! Way to go! They know that being sleep deprived is getting behind the wheel of a car like a drunk driver.

  8. Sarah

    I once rebuked him in Jesus’ name when he spewed his filth and he cackled (I kid you not) like a demon. It sent chills down my spine and I heard his real father….

  9. Finding Answers

    Pastor Jeff wrote in the original post:

    His words are uttered with the purpose of destroying and devouring his victims off the face of the earth.

    Another breadcrumb….

    I’ve always been so careful with my words, finding what expresses me, communicating while inflicting the least amount of pain. At times, I have erred, a poorly worded phrase eliciting a different response. (I have taught students….I’m sure there are others in the ACFJ community who – like me – discover an alternate understanding to a question when a student turned in a test. 🙂 )

    Oh….a dot connected.

    In the past, my style of communication has been used against me, a way of blame-shifting from someone else to me.

    The more I struggle for the words I can’t find, the greater the pain…..

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